Parting Thoughts

With our souls separated by a couple thousand miles- a distance that increases by the day- I was left wondering “What are we?” One too rooted in being wounded to feel cupid could strike again from afar. The other’s pride too strong to swallow and troubled that these early “signs” might be an omen of what will follow. In this state of flux, I feel like there is “you and I” but not us. When we were an arm’s distance away, my love wasn’t enough but now you seem to say it is and expect me to just trust. I’m left feeling at a loss wondering if it’s even possible to pick up right where we left off. So… I build a wall too high for you to climb and cement it with time. Then, I put a sign up that says “Closed For Business” and “Thank You” for trying.

As hard as it may be to accept, every hello between us has turned into a goodbye.

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TOP 10 Accomplishments… while at UIUC (2005-2014)

After almost 9 years in Champaign-Urbana, I decided to list my top 10 accomplishments. Granted, there are a lot that didn’t make the list such as accomplishing live radio streaming from a pizza shop which was incredible. Nonetheless, I had to pick 10. So here they are. I hope you enjoy…

10. Travel to Central Europe

I was looking for any way to escape Champaign. The educational environment was too toxic and I needed to be away to gain clarity on why I started the MD/PhD program in the first place. I was leaving lab to head for seminar when I came across a friend that told me about a grant opportunity that seemed unreal. He said that I should apply to this NSF grant to travel to Central Europe and do research during the summer. He praised its importance and the support from the administrators. On a passing recommendation, I applied with the deadline being less than a couple months away. I just had to get out of Champaign-Urbana. I was able to successfully identify a researcher in Germany to support a suggested project depsite my lack of support on campus. I ended up being denied at first and then getting the grant when a windfall of funds was obtained. I got to live in Jena, Germany for almost 2 months and traveled sporadically for professional and personal purposes to Hungary, Germany, Austria, Poland, Slovakia and Czech Republic. I spent varying time in each of these places and was exposed to an extremely different way of life that opened my eyes and started to revive my hope for Science and humanity. Many people don’t get to travel during their graduate or professional training and I was able to tour Central Europe on the government’s dime.

9. LMSA

I was privileged to organize my campus, region and national board for the Latino Medical Student Association, a

www.LMSA.net

LMSA Map

professional medical student organization with thousands of members across the country. I met so many amazing people, along with a few a$#%@es, throughout my time in this group. I helped to organize a local chapter of NNLAMS (former name of LMSA) on my campus after being the sole participant for a while. From there, I was able to galvanize people to participate in Regional and National conferences. I went on to the Regional Board where I had an amazing team of motivated folks to help run the Midwest.  Yes, we had 1 or 2 scatterbrained individuals who drained me every now and then, but I was excited for my region. During my time as Regional Midwest Co-President, our region became its most profitable and experienced its largest expansion in terms of activating chapters to date.

On the advice of my mentor Dr. Phil DeChavez, I relunctantly ran for National Coordinator and won. It was an extreme privilege and we made history. We were able to write 2 grants for our organization. We were able to get one funded which paid for GLAS for the following year in the SW region in Texas. LMSA expanded well beyond its prior capacity. During my time, I had to be one (if not the) top student fundraiser. For my chapter, I helped to raise an average of $5,000 or more each year for my chapter using campus resources (SORF, SCPF, La Casa funds) and anything else I could garner from donors and fundraisers.
During my time as National Coordinator, we conducted our first streaming live conference and had over 50 participants watching it live. A year or so prior to becoming National Coordinator, LMSA SW became defunct. Something happened where the entire region de-activated and no one really knew why. After weeks of e-mailing and cajoling individuals at various institutions, I was able to get in contact with a few scholars at various SW medical schools and organize a house of delegates meeting. At this meeting, I spoke and they invited a group of key note speakers on issues affecting Latin@s in border communities and across the country. Afterwards, they voted on an e-board and the SW was been getting stronger ever since. In 2014, LMSA SW is actually hosting the National Conference which many would not have foreseen just 2 years ago. I don’t know if anyone realized how much effort I put into ensuring that this took place, but it was worth it. There were a lot of good people down there and I was more than happy to sacrifice my time.
I was able to help write and design for the first and second LMSA National Publications organized by a good friend. For the national conference my year in 2012, we held it at Harvard Medical School and featured a Presidential Medal Of Freedom recipient Dr. Pedro José Greer. On my way out of office, we successfully lobbied UIC to donate a free database for us to manage our membership. And yes, there was 1-2 scabs on the National Board and National Conference committee. But I am proud of everything that I did at each level and can honestly say that I left each level in the best condition that it had ever been when I walked out the door.

8. Rule Changes

Many people don’t know this, but there were 2 U of I rules that were changed because of me. The first is the banning of spray chalking. During 2007, I spray chalked “KKK Est. 1906 at UIUC” (this is reference to the fact that there was our University was the first to have a collegiate chapter of the Ku Klux Klan) adjacent to spray chalkings of people running for student government such as alums Chime Asonye (“Vote For Chime”) and Paul Schmitt (“Vote For Schmitt”). They erased my chalkings and none of the others. I should have sued for infringement on my civil liberties but I don’t have time for this nonsense. I didn’t come to give these people an education in Social Justice. I came to get degrees in Medicine and the Sciences.
They can spin it however they want, but they felt that my words and actions were too powerful. Instead of challenging me directly, they changed policies and procedures to try to limit me and anyone else who would employ similar tactics. To see the University of Illinois legislate its ignorance was awesome.

7. The Show – Radio Program

From the first month that I arrived to my last year in Champaign-Urbana, I was involved in some capacity with WRFU, 104.5 FM. This is a public community radio station that literally did not exist prior to my arrival. On November 8, 2005, we conducted our first broadcast. I actually had to make my first one a pre-recorded mp3 due to a conflicting event at the AHA National Conference in New Orleans that year. That was a technological learning curve that I wasn’t

expecting to tackle. I aired Fridays at 10 PM and was on almost every week during my first few years. Towards the end, I was more inclined to record content in my home studios and air it for fans and enthusiasts. I hadthe longest running program on WRFU since I literally broadcast since inception. Not exactly hard to do since I was one of the first people there. Nonetheless, it was an amazing roller coaster ride that provided me direct insight into the power of media and the importance of making the airwaves accessible.

6. The Show – TV Program

In my ire and frustation with the College of Medicine, I expanded my media efforts to TV to combat their message. Ironically, these efforts led me to having one of the most popular and impactful TV programs on UPTV. I filmed over 100 TV episodes that aired on Urbana Public TV Channel 6 and UI TV Channel 7. I eventually found out that I was eligible to put TV episodes on the U of I cable network (which is a propaganda machine for the University of Illinois). Every now and then, the different cable channel director for the U of I would reject content which was super frustrating. I mean, I am a student actively involved in the community and media. To have content that was fine by FCC standards rejected by UITV was disappointing especially when I thought the cable channel was supposed to permit students to express their own art. Obviously, that was a fool’s notion. Nonetheless, at my peak, I had content on Mondays and Wednesdays on 2 cable channels (Urbana Public TV Cable Channel 6 and University of Illinois Cable Channel 7). I would do live Fridays and do extra public comment sessions at student government meetings I am probably the first MD/PhD to produce, film, edit and host his own radio & TV program throughout his graduate & professional training without any support from the University. No one told me what to do. I wasn’t someone’s lackey to talk about what they want when they want. I did what I pleased and I advocated for issues that mattered to me. Some colleagues, students and community members supported. Some observed with disdain or disinterest. The latter was a much more prominent group. However, there were a lot of highlights from interviewing people in the community live on the street (pizza shops, bars, etc) to coordinating live events across campus (La Casa, Asian Ameican Cultural Center, Illini Union, Courtyard Cafe, Quad, etc) to events in one of my various studios over the years. I was fortunate to interview international stars and world renowned scholar Nikki Giovanni. I featured a President Medal Of Freedom Recipient Sylvia Mendoza and amazing authors (Chris Benson, John Jennings), directors (Victor Cruz, Benny Klain) and so on and so on. You get the picture.
The more time that I spent on TV, the less that I spent on the radio. Producing a radio broadcast is a differentbeast from doing TV. Plus, TV allows you to fully craft the visual associated with your art as it is consumed.
I haven’t found any evidence to the contrary, but I believe I am the first MD/PhD to have his own radio and TV program fully produced on his own throughout the graduate and professional training. For almost 9 years straight, I dominated all other students and community members in terms of media production. And this was amidst a slew of other academic obligations and projects that I oversaw. I feel extremely privileged to have been able to connect with so many people in this way.

5. Racism, Power & Privilege

The Champaign-Urbana campus is notorious for racist theme parties and random acts of ignorance. They try to cover it up but it it is annoying and detracts from the educational experience IMHO. The second year I was here, there was a crazy party held by Delta Delta Delta sorority and Zeta Beta Tau fraternity where students dressed like Mexicans (dressed like vatos, pillow under shirt to symbolize pregnant, gardeners, well… you get the picture). Anyhow, there was a huge backlash from students at the same that people were getting super pissed about the racist mascot which involved a white kid running around during sporting events dressed up like their version of a native person. I worked with a slew of scholars from staff, admin, students and community members to organize what is probably the U of I’s largest most effective event in its history. We forced the President, Chancellor, BOT members and others to sit on stage while we yelled at them. We were able to get over 3,000 present at Foellinger Hall or watching from other locations via live stream (Greg Hall, Illini Union Rooms and via internet). Shortly after this event in February 2007,  the University succumbed to the pressure and removed the image as the mascot.
Some people think that the NCAA was the real reason for the mascot removal due to the potential sanctions (ie ineligible for NCAA tournaments) but that’s absurd. To think that this wasn’t in the works for decades is dishonest. The NCAA threat of sanctions came as a result of advocacy from community groups coordinating efforts to remove the mascot and mascot imagery from NCAA sports teams.
In 2005, the American Psychological Association had released a statement citing the “harmful effects of racial stereotyping and inaccurate racial portrayals, including the particularly harmful effects of American Indian sports mascots on the social identity development and self-esteem of American Indian young people”. However, 1984 is the year that Charlene Teters became the first brave soul on our campus to protest the existence of the mascot. Eventually, I tried speaking and eventually yelling at so many people at various levels about this ignorant image citing it as a blaring example to legitimize my claim that there is a culture of bias and unprofessionalism at the University of Illinois College of Medicine (UI COM). People kept telling me it would never happen utilizing all sorts of racist logic to rationalize why I should accept it and move on.
Contrary to popular opinion, 2007 marked the year that a collective of professors, students, community members and outside forces were able to align to effect social change. But we didn’t only remove the mascot. We came from different perspectives to make a bunch of changes that many students don’t even know. From getting remodeling in cultural houses to advocating for various Ethnic studies Programs such as Latino/Latino Studies Major, we got physical and political changes accomplished. For those interested in watching this public meeting that is about 2 hours long, you can watch it here: http://www.iresist.org/stop/

4. Spoken Word Film & Audio Albums

I was super depressed and in a bad mind state during the second year of Medical School / 7th year of my program. I ended up doing more writing than usual as a way to vent. One random night, I stumbled upon the Urbana Public Arts grant opportunity. In the midst of all this drama and turmoil in my professional and personal life, I thought that producing a Spoken Word album would be a positive way to address my issues. I never really thought that they would give me the grant. After all, I thought, do they know how racist I think this town is?? Well, sure enough, I got the grant.  I started to consider the possibilities and move everything inmotion to create a masterpiece.
But I didn’t want to be generic or cornball. So I recruited some top notch artists including Add-2 who signed with Grammy Award-winning producer 9th Wonder’s JamLa Records within a year of that album release. I also recruited Rokmore of TheGr8Thinkaz who is one of the most talented artists I have encountered when it comes to beat production. I linked up with some amazing spoken word artists in the interim. With that said, the most powerful video was done with Jazmine McKinney and filmed by Emmanuel Camacho. With the help of one of this students (Shabaka Verna), we were able to produce a visual masterpiece that won the Midwest Award for Best in Show in the performing arts category in 2014.
After a successul and well-received IPS volume I, I set my sites on a second tour de force. I set out to produce an album with Aaron Ammons. Ironically, volume I was supposed to be all about Aaron and I. However, we could never get in the studio together due to scheduling. I decided that I had to work with Aaron for volume II. We set goals and expectations. However, the final product far exceeded anything we could have imagined. We disseminated 200 hard copies locally and had an amazing release event that was covered in 2 publications prior to transpiring.
Not only was the second album release a huge success, but we are going to release a special video for the second album that I believe will surpass volume I and surprise many.

3. Finishing my Ph. D. in Biochemistry

After being wrongfully removed from my first lab, I was distraught. The U of I was so racist that I started to emotionally and physically feel the effects of the ignorance. I was somatizing my psychological distress in the form of back pain and poor sleep. My energy level and enthusiasm fell for the things that I love doing. That’s how salty they made me about the situation. I mean, I was in year 2 out of 8 and it was overwhelming to think how many more years I would have to endure. Despite that, I received grants, awards and recognition throughout. I finished with 2 first author publications (1 is currently under review). I have another first author publication that I am working to finish before I leave in April. Admittedly, senioritis is kicking in so that third one might be on hold.  Ironically, there were people on my campus that believed that I would not finish. I don’t even know why. I’ve faced some extremely difficult odds. And while I haven’t batted a thousand, I certainly haven’t been defeated. I don’t understand why so many people here would root for my failure either. I never cared but it was needlessly disparaging because I made plain in my words publicly my distaste. A lot of people here are heavily invested into a reality that is predicated on inequity. Acknowledging that fact and pointing to insulting factors makes you a target here. For my statements and activities, I was blacklisted within the research community at the U of I. The Biochem department lepor is the only way to describe how a lot of people interacted with me. Even still, many may walk these halls, but not all will leave with a degree much less a doctorate. I got mine. Did you?

2. Finishing my Medical Degree

Admittedly, the University of Illinois College of Medicine tainted my experience. Whether it was Dean Jennifer Bloom telling me “Ray, we want to work with you! We don’t want to have to call the police on you!” or Dean Bradford Schwartz threatening to give me a professionalism violation, my COM experience was mired in a disparaging and insulting overtone. Ironically, both of their threats would formalize in some form. The COM would initiate a bogus police investigation to legitimize campus police searching for me at my house and then lab to have a “conversation” with me. When I explained to Dean Schwartz what the

rules for a professionalism violation were, he eventually fabricated a letter to put in my file as mechansim to threaten my career. I walked a fine line with in-your-face public media to respond to their constant barrage of low level racist threatening tactics. I was almost kicked out… I almost dropped out… I almost ran out of money… So much happened throughout that I can’t explain how I felt. A medical degree was theoreticallyeasier to obtain than a PhD, but the people made it a prison sentence. Being bounded by folks who were actively undermined my ideas and activities left a bitter taste. As soon as I obtain every needed requirement to graduate from the U of I COM, I am leaving this town. I hope to never come back. With that said, I came here to obtain a graduate and a professional degree to legitimize my intellectual position amongst other leading scholars. I may not be where I want to be. But I am on track.

1. Getting into my #1 pick for Residency

At one point before all the carnage ensued from my decision to be vocal about my discontent at the University of Illinois College of Medicine, I sat in a room in my basement thinking about what might happen. I played out all the doomsday scenarios about what might be in store for the next umpteen years as a result of my potential next steps. One possibility was that I might not get into the type of residency program of my choice, much less the location.
I could have shut my mouth. Reaped the benefit of continued funding and guaranteed ascension with the research ranks with continued efforts. Instead, I had my funding threatened, cut and limited through teaching opportunities. I accepted that I would have to TA for over 6 semesters for so many courses. I accepted that I would have to teach and grade for courses with over 200 people. Think about how long it takes to grade 300 exams within 1 week. Even if you only grade 2 or 3 questions, you are incapacitated for 1 week in research doing mindless grunt work. I’d love to contrast my TA experiences with others in NIH MSTP funded MD/PhDs. The cushy calm of the quiet fell deaf on me. Not to mention accepting being socially blacklisted for my strong position on matters pertaining to marginalized populations. The social ramifications were bizarre. I’ve never been socially ousted by cornballs. As if they had anything I wanted other than civility and human decency.
There were a lot of turns where simply not being true to who I am would have yielded more favorable professional outcomes… at least momentarily. I stuck with it though, because I am of the opinion that I control my own fate. Being the best that I can be requires believing that my best effort is more than enough to accomplish my destiny. Getting into my #1 choice for residency was a validation of that belief. One that I was doubtful of for stretches. Needless to say, I made it. Hopefully it is clear by now that it is engrained in me to “persevere and achieve in spite of numerous obstacles.”
Closing Thoughts
The last decade tested the limits of my willpower and belief in humanity. I had to re-evaluate a lot of professional and personal relationships that I would have never thought that I would draw into question. That has taught me to stay focused on my long term goals and to be flexible with my short term aspirations. Although I’m proud of the accomplishments that I listed, they pail in comparison as to what i thought I was possible. For that reason, I set my sights higher. My goals are being dreamed into existence and I get better and better at it with each effort.
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Hoped: Performance Untold

After he saw how her hair caressed her curves
He changed his words
Fearful
Self-Conscious
He wanted to script the story
The perfect prose to praise her beauty
Instead he shattered
scared to be yours truly
Perhaps she wanted to be embarrassed in public
But her text not two seconds before made him change his subject
Her smile was worth more than a block of gold
But somehow his ignorance made her love turn cold
Causing things to meander from how he hoped they would unfold

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VOTE FOR SEX

Nowadays, even sex is political
So when I make love, that’s a vote that I’m giving you
when casting my ballot I’m simply quite cynical

Because I’ve stepped into the booth so many times
not knowing the candidate
ready to pull that lever
you see
Honestly, I was never judicious with my executive branch
so I was jerked every time I put it down on the legislature


I fell for the rhetoric
Line by line
suckered by the propaganda
Every single time

So angry at the deception, I want to move to impeach
but I’m so scared of the unknown
that I stick with the incumbent and roll my eyes every time she speaks

Feeling disenfranchised
I choose NOT to step into the booth
No more falling hook line and sinker for a quirky well marketed superficial bumper sticker

So…
Whether you’re an anarchist, federalist or a democratic-republican-acorn-teaparty strategist
this is just a bit of dialectic from a young Boriqua eloquetionist
There is no perfect you
And there is definitely no perfect me
So there is no right way to find the a democratic republic of WE

The search perfect candidate is simply a scheme
To replace finding someone who shares in my dreams
Someone to subsidize my love and contribute to my welfare
Really, its as simple as universal healthcare
So, before you can have my vote
I have a bill earmarked with your name on it
The question is, “Are you ready to pass it?”
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ILL POETS SOCIETY Response

2013 has been intense and we are only 1/3 of the way through. The biggest feat this month is that I completed ILL POETS SOCIETY volume I: The Spoken Word project.

I completed post-production of this project amidst my most vigorous medical school rotation in Internal Medicine. I had to negotiate my time to order 50 hard copies that I distributed across the Champaign-Urbana community. I made the audio files from the audio album in the dual disc available for free download. I put up video files on various websites of pieces off of the film. I gave copies to local radio stations to rebroadcast. I also gave copies to various people in the community to enjoy. Despite the huge time commitment, I can honestly say that this has been one of the most fulfilling artistic endeavors to date.

ILL POETS SOCIETY was a form of catharsis. I can’t convey all the madness in my life much less within the Graduate and Professional process that one must endure. The reality is that I could have turned a blind eye to the ignorance at the University of Illinois a long time ago and been the poster child for my program. At the end of the day, you have to be happy with yourself. Some people are able to compartmentalize their emotions regarding circumstances of oppression as they traverse these so-called academically challenging Institutions. I was never bestowed with the gift to close my eyes or my heart.

Some say that they will wait until they reach the position of power to then give back. They claim that once you have that top spot, you can change it and open doors for future scholars. I have never subscribed to this philosophy or put stock in its worth.

For some reason, people still don’t understand why this has been the worst academic experience that I have ever had to endure. My years here at the
So when you peer into my soul and listen the audio album or watch the film titled ILL POETS SOCIETY, know that my intent was not to entertain. I never sought to inspire. I merely attempted to tell true stories from a place of love to help ease the pain that I experience and that I know the people that I care about are experiencing. University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign have been marred by racism and privilege hurled at through undergrads, colleagues, staff, professors, physicians, community members and just about anyone who felt like pissing in my direction. This project, ILL POETS SOCIETY, allowed me to return focus. I was able to stop focusing on the miniscule and individual situations that I was experiencing to step back and look at the Big Picture. People are suffering everywhere. The notion that I should wait until I am 40 or 50 years of age to be a Dean or Professor to finally state my position against something hateful against the

people that I love is asinine and offensive.

Far be it from me to portray myself as being without flaw though. I am an imperfect soul walking closer and closer towards my goals and further and further from my childhood. Thank you for joining me on this ride.

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Family Member

Her beautiful brown skin turned yellow
As her personality dissipated
She broke out into a familiar chorus
“Mommy, Please!”
And threw her hands in the air for something only she could see
Delirium had been set in
Crying within, her son struggled in
He and his sister caressed her forehead at the bedside
An avalanche of tears
Landslide
A thanksgiving break like any other
Filled with traditional food and time spent with my mother
And the usual hospice visit to watch the death of another

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P-ILLS

Her body lay limp across the muebles. Her black curly hair flattened against the unyielding vinyl covers. Across the glass coffee table surface were a variety of pill bottles. Some of the vials were strewn across the table. The transparent orange hue etched into my young impressionable mind before the contents could be comprehended. My mother chose never to discuss what happened to my aunt Wanda.

This image is stuck in my mind.

Unconsciously, I equated the use of pills with the death of love.

At each juncture, I would opt to not take medications.

I would

spilled

Pills

Orange

Still

Loved one

Dentist

Wisdom teeth

Pain

Being in so much pain and not taking any medications.

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I Wonder (Promised)

I told her that I wrote a piece with her in mind. After piquing her interest, I told her that I hoped she never heard it…
I wonder when he walked in the room if she her held breath
He was so predictable that she probably foresaw every single step
She deserved spontaneity and inspiration
But he could only provide the mondane and suffocation of her beauty
As fine as the grains of sand, she slipped through his fingers with every grasp
Alas he had experienced her body, but her mind and soul he could never have
You see, he was everything she thought she wanted and never needed
He could provide her with security and the promise of tomorrow she repeated
to herself
He was there
He was safe
So when he got down on one knee and professed his love with a smile on his face
Moisture rolled down her cheeks in a race
Her tears were not of joy and excitement but of pain and sorrow
The noose slid around her ring finger and her life became borrowed
Her inner self had died and given way to a facade that she had long decided to maintain
A piece of her wanted me in his place to remain by her side but the look on her eyes had changed
At first, she wanted me
To carve her fairness into a fresh marble stone on the daily
To capture her allure with digital ink while her soul screamed save me
To think
If only she had told me straight up, I would have been by her side in a blink
So when I peered into her soul, I could see that she was trapped and promised
And to be honest
Sometimes
I wonder…

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My Presidential Vote And Why

Time To Deport Romney Back to Detroit

Time To Deport Romney Back to Detroit

Obama has a horrendous record on Immigration. He did a piss poor job of passing Universal Healthcare and only got the Affordable Healthcare Act through Democratic crude brunt force.

Nonetheless, the most important issues to me: Healthcare, Education and Research. All of these issues directly impact the Economy. Saying you want a strong economy without a plan to address the issue that is contributing to >15% of our GDP (Healthcare), without talking about building infrastructure (Education) and without talking about increasing funding for America’s next innovation (Research) is an empty promise. Taxes and the military will play little to no part in improving the economic and day-to-day circumstances of the average person in contrast to these 3 factors.
On those factors, Obama has a stronger record.
Mitt Romeny wants to remove Obamacare which follows the exact same model that he built in Massachusetts. This is hypocritical and irresponsible in my eyes. Romney would do so under the guise of a so-called support for each state to handle the matter on its own as if this new political will will arise out of thin air to overcome the lobbyists. To remove coverage for so many young Americans, aging Americans and those with pre-existing conditions is criminal, imho. Moreover, Healthcare is a RIGHT. Everyone should have access irrespective of your paperwork or what you can afford. While Obama fell short of the goal that I individually want, more people will be covered and we cannot afford to have millions of Americans continually left uninsured. Next, research is the key to keeping America at the cutting edge and ensuring that jobs stay in America for the middle class and beyond. We are the epicenter for innovation because we outspend other nations but that course was reversed under the Bush years. The NIH and other research arms were forced to take cuts when we started to fund unnecessary wars. We need to redouble our efforts to improve efforts in stem cell research, nanotechnology and vaccines. These research initiatives will yield benefits for every American and for our military.
As far as Massachusetts being #1 in 4th and 8th grade performance on standardized exams, I contest the notion that this means the kids will necessarily have brighter futures. I was in Massachusetts under Gov Romney. First of, I could not stand the largest economic waste under his purview, the Big Dig. It was one of the most bloated government projects ever. Granted he chastised the person who led it, but it transpired under his supervision. Moreover, I volunteered time in local schools in Cambridge, MA to tutor Elementary school students as an undergraduate. I saw firsthand how educators were forgoing the educational process to specifically teach what was on the exam. Teachers would literally stop the lessons of the day to bust out their books to do practice problems and to help students memorize how to take the test at the beginning of the academic year, because the school funding depended on the performance. I do think we need to prevent teachers unions from having such a stronghold over our schools and preventing us from firing bad teachers who have been in the system for decades. But the reality is that principals and the administrations of schools are often the biggest culprits of inequity and waste.
So who am I voting for? Begrudgingly, Obama. I can’t risk having Romney, the “ditto-master”, put into power when he has never given me a concrete example of how he would have been more effective employing the same exact tactics. We know that Romney is a worse statesman and we know that he has made various threats of war. None of that engenders anything positive from me.
Finally, this next presidency will likely have the ability to pick at least one justice which has dramatic implications for Women’s Right To Choice and Diversity policies across the country. These last two points reinforce in my mind that a Green Party vote could empower someone who could dramatically turn back the clock on this nation.

With that said, I am going to burn Obama if there is no Dream Act equivalent passed. I am going to chastise and belittle him if we don’t increase funding for education and stop Principals from ruining schools and bad teachers from breaking the system. And I am also going to label him as the biggest tyrant if he doesn’t block state practices which impinge on civil liberties like stop-and-frisk in NYC. Then and only then, can we move forward.

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How To Fix ViewSonic PJ458D DLP Projector Issue

DISCLAIMER: I am not an expert or licensed professional. I am simply an intelligent person with the ability to read and use the web. If this works for you, great. If not, I’m sorry. Keep reading and try to figure out your problem!

Issue at hand: Orange Power light and Green flashing power light. The machine turns out and as it is illuminating the Viewsonic logo, it immediately powers down and begins to flash an orange light.

With the casing removed, you can see only one fan is functional when it is powered

Solution: open it up and replace the broken fan(s).

How?

Well, I read a post on Fixya.com where a user ever so cavalierly posted that he replaced the fan and it resolved his issue. I thought ‘thanks a–hole for not sharing how you did it’. Having read that, I decided it was time to put some elbow grease into this problem to resolve this issue. So here is what I did.

There are 4 screws underneath near the front bottom that need to be removed. The first two will allow you to pop off the front panel over the fans and lens (See Above image). The other two allow you to wedge the top panel upward to create enough space to open the device and remove either fan.

Carefully remove the fans

Once you pop off the front panel, a small plastic semi circle piece over the front of the lens may come loose. Simply keep tabs on it and put it back at the end.

Plug it back in with the casing removed so you can see if one or both fans need to be replaced. WARNING: You are doing this at your own risk. Don’t touch anything other than the power button. When it turns on, look at whether the fans both spin. If they don’t it doesn’t work. If it does, then it works. Then press the power button to turn it off.

This is the 3 pin connector for the fan. Pull it out using Tweezers.

Once you turn it off, wait for everything to power off COMPLETELY before proceeding. Seriously, don’t be a idiot and use all safety precautions (and common sense) at all times.

Just as it says.

Remove The Lightbulb

At this point, it is optional but I recommend that you remove the light bulb and keep it safely stashed during this process. You will do a bunch of manipulations on the device and you want to make certain to avoid damaging it.

The fans will not come out completely so do not tug rigorously on the rubber casing. You need to slide the rubber holder off of each fan. Even if you want to fix one, start with the left one and remove that first. Be careful when pulling the fans out. There is an LED light and small circuit board above the fans that you can easily damage. Just be careful pulling off the rubber and it shouldn’t be an issue. If you yank or try to pull aggressively, then you will have a problem.

How to connect the cables

Once the rubber casing is off, use tweezers to remove the tape over the cable corresponding to the fan without destroying it so you can reuse the tape.

Once the tape is off, detach the respective 3 pin cable inserted into the board by giving a gentle tug on the cable using the tweezers. Once you remove the fan, replace it with the new one.

I went to my local store and purchased one for $10.95. It was 60 mm x 60 mm x 25 mm (depth) 3pin 5000 rpm model. Not sure what the necessary rpms for it is, but I suppose 5000 is bare minimum since it works for me. Anything less and it may or may not work. I chose 5000 rpm because it was the ONLY one they had. Obviously you can buy one online for $2, but shipping will get you. Unless you have all the time in the world, this is the simplest thing to do. Otherwise, you can always try to jack it from another source (ie computer, friend, etc).

One quick note, make sure to have black electrical tubing placed over the cable as was done on the original fan. You may want to try to get some tubing to place over the cable as was done for the fan you purchased. This black tubing is essential to ensuring it doesn’t heat up, burn a hole through the cable and cause a bigger problem (ie burn cables, start fire, etc). Place the original tape back over the cable to try to keep the cable firmly in place where the original fan cable was.

New Fan

The new fan installed

After it is back in, place the rubber casing back on and place all the casings back. Screw all the screws back in and you should be done.

Here is a final pic of my device with the new fan in place and fully functional.

Feel free to send me comments.

The final product

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